ramblings from the novel I’m writing, ‘Stella Sky’

September 22, 2011

Dragons. It is almost too much to believe and yet, in all her curiosity, could it be that Stella has always known? Known them to be real? For they have inhabited the realms of her imagination for as long as she can remember. These creatures hunted and feared and fought for as the prize that [...]

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how much more can our bodies take…?

September 6, 2011

There are these times when, even in the light of all I’m discovering around sex and sexual energy, that it feels like my body simply wants to shut it off. Sexual energy. Shut down and shut it off. And in the past it has made me keep whatever partner I am with at arm’s length. [...]

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surfin’…

September 2, 2011

This morning I opened an email from Adea. And in the email she was feeling the pressure of all that’s going on. Because she’s finishing shooting a movie, and has a new computer arriving that she needs to figure out how to sign for and in two days she leaves for the East Coast to [...]

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with the force of habit comes the habit of force…

August 21, 2011

There’s this part of me that I’ve been observing. It’s the part that, in interactions with others, can feel hurt or misused or judged or criticized. It’s the part that, in the heat of the moment, wants to deflect the perceived criticism or misuse, throw it right back with a comment like, “You do that [...]

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unfolding into the mystery…

August 11, 2011

The other day I’m washing and sweeping the floor and there are all these stories running through my mind – stories that are constricted and seemingly big in their smallness and make me oblivious to anything and everything except the way in which they look for and find blame and hardship and exhaustion – and [...]

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it’s a zing thing…

July 23, 2011

A few months ago I saw the Justin Beiber movie. And I’ve been thinking about the whole Beiber Fever thing. Because in this movie there are thousands and thousands of girls who are out of their minds for him. Literally. Out of their minds. And I realize Justin Beiber isn’t and hasn’t been the only [...]

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boys and girls come out to play…

July 12, 2011

I’ve been looking at power. And I’m assuming it’s a given that we’re pretty much in agreement that things are out of balance. An imbalance of power in us, in the world, in relations. If you have any doubt, take a look around and tell me what you see. Maybe you’ll speak of disharmony in [...]

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I gotta feelin’…

June 20, 2011

There’s this feeling that I can’t shake. Not that I want to shake it. Maybe it’s that I don’t trust it – like I’m expecting it to go away, replaced by the habit of feeling like there’s so much to do and not enough time to do it all, one thing after another that means [...]

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so very careful with love…

May 26, 2011

This weekend Lux fell. He took a jump on his snowboard, caught serious air and knocked himself unconscious. Ambulance. Oxygen. Emergency room. And it so happened that I was in LA for the weekend. And the morning after the accident, as I’m getting ready to catch a plane back to New Mexico and cook for [...]

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it’s a love story revisited…

May 12, 2011

Some time last week Rachel said something about how she’d once read this thing on Facebook which asked, ‘If you only had one more year left to live, what would you do?’ Some time last week she told me that, if it were her, she’d choose to spend that last year with me. And at [...]

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